Thursday, March 26, 2009
okies... apparently i haven got out of e shock yet but yeaps... all of a sudden i feel so freaking emo!! i wonder y?!?! i feel like jus crying but duno for wad reason... i dun want tmr morning to come even!! hais... i jus want time to suddenly stop now... like i can still do stuff but it jus never gets to morning??? time's slowly ticking by... and im still doing nothing to make full use of it.... sch's tiring and e more i go thru it, e more im convinced im done with studying... e projs, exams are seriously making me cranky... and i hate e cranky me...
i wish i cld jus b like naturally good?? like in no matter wad... natually good in all e good things... like studying, talented, thin, pretty, nice, mild tempered, etc but im so totally opp of all these!! y?!?! i wonder y i turned out to become e person im now but hais... im doing so much to try to become all e nice things in e world but yet i tink e more i try, e worse it gets and it frustrates me cux i dun dare to let go of all e trying part cux im afraid once i stop trying, everything will jus turn for e worst.. can someone actually save me frm all these?? mayb someone who will accept me for all e bad stuff when i dun keep trying will b good??!! hais... someone pls save me frm all these crap!! ergh!!
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